Stubborn Little One

So now things have dragged on for me. Still here waiting with this ever large bump that is certainly not getting any easier to carry. The bright side now is the midwife gave me an induction day. This is because little one has not decided to show up on time an we need to get baby out safely cause if she stays in any longer its not favourable as the placenta becomes more degraded.

 

So this Friday I am going to be taken into hospital and induced.

 

It feels good now to have a definite date that I can focus on and know that something will happen. I just hope she comes on the Friday as my Step-Sister’s little boy is having his 3rd Birthday Party on the Saturday and I would love for my little one to have a birthday to herself an not have to share with someone else in the family especially since he is a spoilt little brat (down to his father) it’s such a shame that everyone in our family don’t like her husband and her little boy is just the exact same as his father.

 

 

I really now just can’t wait, this weekend I will finally have our little with us. You can certainly expect pictures to follow with an extremely happy post after this weekend

1 Day Over

Well never thought I would be at this stage of being a day over my due date, 5th June, it’s certainly now feeling more of waiting game then ever. I think with the fact that I had been having the feelings and signs of possibly starting early I got myself in that mind from that by today I would at least have my little one. But I am still waiting to see little ones face.

I’m trying not to be to disheartened by this, I knew my chances of having little one on time or early was slim. The majority of first time mothers is said to go after their due date. But still I was hoping I wouldn’t be put into that figure category.

All hopefully will fix itself as I have a midwife appointment tomorrow afternoon where I will get offered a membrane sweep which can help bring on labour. I certainly hope so. If I’m going to be late I’d rather it be just a couple of days overdue rather than having to wait this ridiculous time nowadays of 10 to 14 days after your due date before the hospital will take you in to induce them. If I have to wait that long I will go crazy and probably by the time I go into labour will have whatever midwife dealing with me at the time head. I do have patience but these days they are shortened.

 

Maybe this will change by tonight who knows, little one is more active at night time an always tries best to start coming then.

Waiting Stages

I usually am pretty good at waiting for things. Now I think I am losing this quality.

These past few days I have been getting more and more impatient. It’s probably with my due date around the corner and hoping I don’t go over my due date. Also the fact that I feel ready to have my little one now, all the signs and feelings make me feel it is not long away before the moment of driving me into hospital.

With this restlessness I have been feeling I have been trying to rest as it makes me extremely tired and not motivated to do much as it tends to hurt a lot to make the smallest of movements, so watching my tv shows has been the most of my activities which is suited since it involves resting.

Is waiting this morning for a shiny new fridge freezer to arrive. Our current one is not overly that big so very kindly my nana went and bought us one as a gift to celebrate her receiving her money from finishing work. We certainly are lucky to have such good family around to help out with everything that they have done for us.

I think I shall have to do some baking to say thanks to everyone, well that depends if I don’t end up going into labour before I plan to make some cakes for everyone. But the more I type about it the more I am tempted to go and start baking some cupcakes for myself and eat them.

Survived Weekend

Well the busy weekend of wedding and parties was survived without a surprise appearance from the little one.

So with having my midwife appointment yesterday my next one that has been booked for me is the 7th of June but I certainly hope not to keep that one as my dues date is the 5th of June and I certainly do not want to be going over. Hopefully it won’t be the case with having ‘a show’ last Wednesday which is a sign of labour preparing. Each day for me certainly is a question of wondering is this it is it happening, is this the start?

I think all the false starts has certainly got me on edge with wondering. My plan is to keep myself busy to at least have one task to do each day.

Today I had to return my nana’s birthday present as it was faulty and buy my granddad’s birthday present which is today. Thankfully they only stay 5 minutes down the road from me but I am going to visit them later when my dad goes down as that way I can get a lift down in the car *inserts cheeky grin*.

Tomorrow we going to a friends house to have some lovely steak cooked for me, I certainly look forward to it as nothing can beat a good meal and not having to cook it or clean up after yourself. Also the living room will be getting cleared out tomorrow as we have a decorator coming on Friday to redecorate the living room for us courtesy  of my grandmother which is really nice. Cause for us to find the time to decorate is hard as my boyfriend works night shift and time is hard to come by to have to ourselves never mind trying to decorate a full room.

I am putting pictures up of the party and wedding on my flickr account which you can have a peek at, from the bottom of the page.

Missing Posts

So it’s been a little while since I did post last which I do apologise about. Taking some time to sit down and write seemed to be a struggle for me, which is weird as I was able to sit down and write elsewhere.

I think it is to do with I don’t always know where to start on my personal blog. I have also had quite a few unwanted hospital visits. I have been to the triage department at the hospital twice the past week and a half. I certainly think that has made me more lazy into coming online and posting about my ongoings.

Despite this all is well, don’t worry too much folks. On my last visit up there was cause my midwife had sent me up on a regular check-up as I had high blood pressure, which did settle down an was okay when being checked over at the hospital. My midwife and me think it was high due to me being in a lot of pain from the tightenings and contractions I was having at the time of seeing her. Which had settled down a bit more by the time of getting to the hospital an was getting back to normal as they monitored me. They did find however that I am anaemic, which meant my iron count was low in blood so I have been given iron tablets to take.

With all of this excitement from Tuesday hospital visit yesterday which was Wednesday I had a ‘show’ which is basically not to get too graphic for those who don’t want to know means in simple terms my plug for my cervix has come away and is one of the preparation signs of body getting ready for labour.

Which is great it means hopefully not too much longer now I shall have my little girl with me. But with a busy weekend ahead I hope I can maybe just last till late on Saturday or till Sunday.

Today I have been baking a cake for my granddad to have at my nana’s 60th birthday party Friday evening. I am going to do the decoration tonight for it. I am making it a telephone box cake, its a family joke within that my granddad always tries to say things and uses other words for a word he means and he comes out with some weird crackers like it truly makes me laugh all the time, so we are going to surprise him with a cake also at my nana’s party as their birthdays are only 3 days apart from each other and my nana wanted a cake for him too. I really am enjoying it, but I love baking so it really is a pleasure for me to do and I can’t wait to see his face when he sees it.

After me and my boyfriend spending a couple of hours at the party we are then having to travel through to his mum’s which is basically a couple of towns away. To stay at her house Friday evening as it’s her wedding on the Saturday. She is getting married in the Roslyn Chapel which I have never been in before and you are only allowed to get married in that church if you are member of the church there. It’s one of the historic attraction of Scotland so it’s really going to be exciting to see a wedding happening there. Also the fact that my lovely boyfriend will be in a kilt, he is a tall and strapping looking fella if I say so myself, 6ft 5″ approx. is certainly a man you don’t miss walking towards you and he rarely ever dresses up so will be lovely to see him walk his mum down the aisle and give her away.

So with this busy weekend ahead I hope little one doesn’t decide she wants to come at an inconvenient moment. But either way I can’t wait.

Shall have a lovely filled post after the weekend of all the activities and pictures of the lovely days.

Cravings of Time

Its always a case of unfortunate timing with me. Especially when it comes to what I just fancy eating also known at the moment as ‘cravings‘. Wanting what you  don’t actually have in the flat just seems to be the aim of the game at the moment, not intentionally may I add. I am lucky though that sometimes when this occurs my lovely boyfriend usually goes to the shop for me to stop my mind constantly harrasing me with the thoughts of the scrummy food I want and can’t have then.

Recent addictions vary from chicken, cranberry & raspberry juice, fruit pastal ice lollies, milkybar cows and new addition of popcorn.

With that in mind my physical ability to do less means I am trying to ration myself with food as I don’t want to put on unnecessary weight, I already am massive with just baby.

Now at 36 weeks pregnant I am on the last stretch but it is feeling forever now as I am limited to movement. Getting in an out of bed these days have become a small mission.

I am keeping myself busy now though with working on sites that I run with my fan videos and other things, which is really good cause I am finding myself having to get stuck in and from afresh almost with things.

Exploring Old Loves

So this past week was filled with re-organising and clearing out. Which made me come across many things I had to either be ruthless with an chuck out of the flat to make space for all the new things that are about to come, making choices of what really matters to me still.

I used to have such a great creative outlet on the web, ranging from web site making, video editing and graphic work that also occasionally dipped into writing. I think along with keeping my blog ongoing I need to get back into some of these things even if I am pressed for time as it offers me some time to myself and a nice distraction from all the crazy ongoings of day to day tasks that can make you feel you are in a never ending routine.

Plus I think with how my pregnancy is progressing I am either going to go into labour a bit earlier than my due date, I am getting more housebound as I am getting more sore an a little more anxious of if this is a sign of me starting labour. Now I am 35 weeks which leaves me not long cause from 38 weeks I can go into labour until the 42 weeks as due date is calculated now as the 40 week mark and you can either go 2 weeks early or late they allow for. So I am on standby already as everything has been starting early with me with my now Braxton Hicks have been getting stronger since the weekend.

Spring Cleaning

The urge of ‘nesting’ has taken over this past week as I have been having the large need to clean an tidy the flat up. The main thing that has made it take as long as it has to get done an only with one cupboard being completed of gutting out, is that I do have to wait for my boyfriend to help me/ do it. I never thought I would find it hard to wait on someone to help me when I am used to doing it myself, but my physical ability is not what it used to be.

The living room is next on the hit list of gutting out. It already has had a small start on it, with my dvd unit being moved into our hall cupboard now an that it was also cleared of a lot of the films I am not going to watch anymore or haven’t watched since buying them to watch. It was a ruthless clear out. All my dvd’s, cd’s and games that I wasn’t going to keep was then sent away to music magpie.com. In fair most of the items I was sending were low in value but some of them did reach quite a bit to bring myself to a nice sum of between 4 loads I am now 3 shelfs lighter and soon to be roughly £120 better for clearing out my living room. Which shall definitely come in handy for there are certainly things around the flat that are needed and a lot of birthday’s coming up in the next month every little shall help.

I think with the slight tidying it started off with, turning into rearranging a room it has turned into a whole flat sorting out. I hope this shall cure the urge an I wont have anymore an the tidiness to last at least until the little one arrives. Fingers Crossed.

Week of Worries

So as the babies room is almost completed, all furniture up and built, just the small touches of door handles and few things to put on walls left to do. It looks so lovely and cheery with the colour of the walls and the clean looking drawers, wardrobe and cot.

So we have a really good start with the room and with starting to fill the wardrobe up thanks to my nana and her spoiling her great grandaughter already.

This week has kept me busy with doctors and trying to make sure I know what is happening in the next month and the following. My memory really isn’t what it used to be. I was always sharp minded an knew all the different tasks I had to do off the top of my head. Now I am having to mark the simplest things down on the calendar, such as just popping down to visit my nana so I don’t forget what day I said I would go down an see her. Or when someone is popping up to see us, or when we are going out to do our monthly shopping. I never use to have to worry about these things.

With worrying about the feelings I have been having this week have kept me mostly house bound this week. Minus the popping out to the shops for a chicken restock. My craving and need to eat chicken certainly is very high these days. I’ve been having terrible cramps and aches. All of which are normal practice I am told. I know this but damn it feels so bad sometimes it does worry me. Guess I’m just getting to that stage where I worry over the slightest thing. I’mm 33 weeks now which is why I’m doing the panicking things. I’m I ready, is my bag ready, still need to get things from shops, is she kicking enough, are these cramps okay for my stage, to say the list goes on it certainly does.

My plan is to try and get some structure in my weeks. I need to try an have things at least laid out for me to do so I don’t get sucked into the boredom cycle again. Sleep, eat, watch tv, eat, nap, do nothing, eat, say goodbye to boyfriend, on own again, bed at ridiculous time.

Warming Up

This week has been warming up. I’ve been absolutely boiling the past few days carrying bump and me around. Living in Scotland certainly doesn’t give you reliable set weather it can change all the time. I am enjoying the ability to go out and not have to wear a jacket over me an just get away with wearing a jumper or something similar.

With the weekend, Saturday my boyfriend (Iain) and me went out with his mum to Ikea as she was going to buy some drawers that we are needing for the baby room. I certainly am revelling in the preparing of the baby room as I think I have definitely reached the ‘nesting’ stage. We certainly are lucking to have such a wonderful family that are helping us prepare for our little one coming with buying her clothes an helping with buying her furniture. Cause with the unfortunate me not being able to still be working at the moment an being signed off work by the doctor leaves us with less money than we usually bring in each month. Plus with that taking a hit anyway with me having to have dropped hours to do daytime work. As I worked nightshift previously with my work.

The room is coming together lovely and the furniture is being built as I type by the lovely man of mine. So I can’t wait to show it off with everything in it an built. I certainly shall have to add some pictures of it when it all done cause I’m so proud of it.